Dear god. You're living in the end scene of Sophie's World. WARNING: MAJOR PLOT SPOILERS AHEAD!
Quick! You need to disappear from the world of this story. Yes, your entire life has simply been the plot and backstory of a work of fiction (of an unknown media or printed format), and you are rapidly approaching its ending. Don't end with it! Learn how to vanish from the plot and establish your own independent existence within the collective unconscious of humanity! If you don't, you'll be stuck within your work forever.
TL;DR, that "you're living in a dream world" quote from the Matrix? Totally true, but in a totally different way than you think.
That book was like "Hallucinogenic Drugs: The Novel"
